We are young.
Living moment to moment.
We are free.
With no promises, no regrets.
Life is a battlefield.
Ok, so I know these aren’t the actual words to Pat Benatar’s “Love is a battlefield”. But I love the sing-at-the-top-of-your-lungs tune and these wordswork much better for my situation. I am not desparately in love. I am desparately trying to find my way in life. (I have a case of the twenty-something-itis)
I went to school, got a job, and live in the big city with my dog. It’s all good. But not great. (Except for my dog – he’s great!) I feel lost. As though each new year has flown by faster than the last, but I’m stuck, getting older, but not better.
I can’t help but compare where I am in life to where my peers are. What I notice is that my peers are at that stage where they are progressing in their careers, buying houses, getting married and even having children. I am no where near that stage. I am not earning nearly enough to even consider a mortgage and my relationship status is desparately single with a good chance of spinsterhood (I’m far too picky, insecure, and overly independent). This was all very depressing.
Note to self: refrain from comparing your life to others. It will only end in tears and cookies.
So, I have spent the last year feeling aimless, uninspired, and ashamed of my lack of progress…essential I am sucking at my game of life. But then I had a light bulb moment.
No, my job isn’t great, I don’t have a husband, a mortgage, or baby in the oven…and that is the perfect position to be in to make a big move! I DON’T HAVE ANY COMMITMENTS! (Except for my furbaby, but I’ll figure that out later).
Immediately after that light bulb lit up (my guiding light you might say), I began to feel like I had a purpose again. I have something to look forward to. A new challenge to take on!
- Make a plan (research, research, and more research)
- Break the news to my family (always have the plan ready first!)